What strange self-delusion is it that has me hanging on to hope of hearing from Manning again? I told myself after the last time I saw him- the night of the Giants playoff game- that I wouldn’t let myself get upset about not hearing from him until after the Super Bowl.
What makes me think my life should revolve around an NFL schedule? I convinced myself that he would have to think about me on this day, and if not it would be a clear sign of disinterest. It has been almost two weeks, but if my phone rang tomorrow I would grin, no questions asked, and rearrange my life to see this guy again.
Now, this isn’t a total lack of self-respect, because I wouldn’t do this for just any guy. I held on to this same hope that Connect Zero would NOT call again, and that didn’t work so well for me. After admitting that he is not a fan of text messaging (how could I date a guy like that?!) he sent me one saying he had a great time and wants to do it again next week.
It’s really hard for me to let go of hope without a clear ending. Insult me, laugh at me, send me a postcard, or a post-it even. Leaving things up in thin air just allows me to spin a blanket out of my last shred of dignity and curl up with it each night my phone sits silent.
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3 Comments
I am the exact same way! I’m a big girl, I can handle it if you tell me you’re not interested. But to leave me hanging? That’s just something that’s hard to deal with.
Posted Saturday, February 2, 2008 at 11:37 am | Permalink
Oh honey. There is NOTHING worse than waiting around for a guy to call. Unfortunately, the only thing I took from that ridiculous, “He’s Just Not That Into You,” book is… If he likes you, he will call. So, get yourself out there and find a new guy who does and will!
Posted Saturday, February 2, 2008 at 10:10 pm | Permalink
Oh this drives me nuts too. Even though I know better (just as 20-Something said - you want someone who is excited to call you!) I still sometimes have to turn my phone off & leave it in my car in order to not check the thing every 5 minutes.
Posted Monday, February 4, 2008 at 4:07 pm | Permalink
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