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The dreading is almost always worse than the doing. I was so not looking forward to having a conversation with Connect Zero that I found myself in serious procrastination mode. When Saturday rolled around and I didn’t have a good excuse of something else to do, I sent a text saying exactly what I was feeling:

“Sorry, I need a night in to myself tonight. Call you later this week.”

I knew I owed him more than a brief explanation, but I didn’t have the energy for it, so I pushed it a little further back in my mind and ahead in my day planner.

After three days I realized I needed a little extra something to push myself over the edge, so I treated it like any other task that I’m not particularly excited about. I wrote it on a To Do list- right there between “Buy Toilet Paper” and “Pay Phone Bill”.

I picked up the phone, dialed his number and cited reasons like “I’m really focused on work right now,” and “I barely even have time to see my friends,” basically my [albeit true] interpretations of “I’m just not that into you.”

I was excited as I hung up the phone. As silly as it sounds, facing any uncomfortable conversation is really difficult for me, and not walking away and taking the easy way out made crossing this one off the list a little extra satisfactory.

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