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Homecoming
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I always think of going home with such jubilation that I forget that it isn’t necessarily a universal sentiment. I stay at my parent’s house instead of renting a hotel room, even if that means I have occasionally been stuck sleeping on a sofa in the living room. I know that I’ll always be welcomed with open arms, a full fridge, available laundry facilities, and keys to the family car.

My circumstances for this trip are reason to celebrate- a childhood friend is getting married. It’ll be a reunion of sorts with some of my favorite girlfriends, and Ill squeeze in brunch, coffee, and drinks around the ceremony and reception. I’ve scheduled play dates with friends’ children so that I can animate the annual Christmas photos with real life voices and personalities.

But I have other friends who aren’t so lucky. Going home for them means facing family feuds, discrediting rumors that have made their way across the coast to haunt their reputation, and disrupting an already overloaded schedule. Their hearts left long ago, and there are no hats to be hung in their houses.

On this trip a few different worlds will collide. One girlfriend from New York will be attending the wedding, while another one recently moved back home after realizing that the city wasn’t for her. I’ll prepare my answers to explain, “How life in New York is treating me” in under three sentences, but I’ll be aware that I now have an audience that can judge my authenticity.

Going home for me is an escape, a return to a world that I didn’t race away from to never look back. It’s a world that I left reassured would be waiting for me to return with a bundle of balloons and a ticker tape parade. It’s my safe place, and I’m looking forward to a weekend in the center of my universe- especially knowing that New York will still be there reluctantly waiting at the airport for my return.




Signs You May Be Living on a Struggling New Yorker’s Budget
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1. Buying shampoo and conditioner in travel-size containers, which is all you can afford while living paycheck to paycheck, and rationing the contents carefully.

2. That extra ten pounds gained after cancelling your gym membership to save money. Subsisting on a strict diet of Top Ramen and Kraft Mac ‘n Cheese hasn’t helped either.

3. Wasting away because you refuse to succumb to the aforementioned diet and chose to abstain from eating all together.

4. Responding to “What do you do for a living?” with more hyphens than a P. Diddy business card, especially is one of those career choices involves drama, dancing, music, writing, or any number of mildly creative pursuits.

5. A mailbox stuffed full of credit card offers claiming “Pre-approval”, who each subsequently issue denials on any application attempt.

6. That secretly relieved smile upon denial because your wallet is already starting to rip at the seems due to the five credit cards from various lending institutions, membership discount cards for bargain shopping and bursting change pocket.

7. Being excited at the Bush tax rebate plan, not because you actually believe that it will stimulate the economy, but because you can pay back your parents for that loan they gave you last summer.

8. Avoiding phone calls from unfamiliar numbers more for the fear of collections officers than of former relationships or lapses in judgment of distribution.
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When Did I Get So Cynical?
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Myself and many people I know call ourselves hopeless romantics, touting a belief in love at first site, true love, or at the very least a faithful partner. But there’s a big difference between wanting it and actually believing in it.

prince-me.jpgI was struck by my cynicism tonight as a girlfriend told the story of a meet-cute that was almost too good to be true (see, there I go doubting love already!). A girl lived here, the guy lived in England. They met while she was on a family vacation and decided to remain pen pals.

When the girl was in high school, and the guy was a few years ahead, he pulled the typical traveler’s move and called on his old American letter-writing connection asking for a place to crash.

Turns out, the girl’s friend had out-of-town parents and a crush on the guy, so he ended up spending the week there instead. There were no hard feelings among the girls, although all outside parties insisted that this was just a fling and the two would never last- I even found myself nodding in agreement.

I mean, c’mon, what are the chances that a college-aged British guy comes to America, meets a recent high school graduate, sequesters himself in her bedroom for half of his trip, and they live happily ever after?
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The Ex-Crush
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juliet-danes.jpegThere are certain people who make more of an impression on your mind than they ever do in your life.

It can almost be harder to get over a crush than an actual relationship. They never had the chance to disappoint you so you can cling to that perfect vision you had of him asking you to the prom/to move in/to marry him.

Harder still is the stigma of not being able to talk about it with your friends. Sure, there’s an accepted grieving period for people you dated for a matter of weeks/months/years. But what about that guy who you just spent hours fantasizing about? How do you instantly drop that habit and move on?

It’s hard to explain why someone makes an impression on you. Why their answers in class made you feel like you understood the depths of their soul. Why their knowledge of an obscure movie you both loved translated to expectations of everlasting love. Why you’re still dying for that silly smile to be directed at you.

There may be a conversation, a date even, but nothing to warrant the obsession of considering their opinion on every decision you make. They may be completely oblivious, a characteristic I’m sad to say usually feeds the monster that consumes my thoughts like an all-you-can-eat smorgasbord.

I don’t remember ever having an imaginary friend, but I can imagine that this is what it felt like to say goodbye when they moved away.




What Would Miriam-Webster Say About Me?
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Defining yourself can be a really difficult task, and one that comes up constantly. Job interviews ask the daunting “Tell me about yourself”, social networks pressure you to come up with something witty for the wide open “About Me” and first dates are pretty much the lightning round of the dating game.

So, I asked a few experts. Taking a cue from a fellow blogger, I emailed some of my oldest friends and newer ones asking for five words to describe me and I got some interesting responses that I grouped below:

Carefree, Free-Spirited, Exciting, Brave, Adventurous

Smart, Intelligent, Pensive, Grounded

Social, Fun, Ditsy, Light-hearted, Fun-Loving, Unpretentious, Approachable

Sincere, Warm, Supportive, Sweet, Sunny, Pollyanna-ish

Open-minded, Independent, Opinionated, Determined

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I’m Not Looking for Excuses
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stop_making_excuses.jpgI’ve heard a number of idiotic excuses from guys in the past as to why they didn’t want to get involved:

- “You’re too mature.”

- “You’re moving and I don’t want to get too attached.”

- “I’m afraid to tell my best friend, because he’s always really liked you too.”

- “You’re a bad kisser.”

And while I have to appreciate some (bros before hoes) and be thankful for others (Um, never realized immaturity was a virtue…) there is one consistent reason that I’ve heard on numerous occasions, one that has crawled up under my skin and bristles every time these words are uttered:
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In the Club (sorry, 50 Cent, I proofread)
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I’m pretty sure I’ve sold my soul.

Working at a nightclub is one of the last things I ever imagined doing at this stage in my life. I partied like a rock star in my day, but lately I’ve hung my dancing shoes on such a high enough shelf that I have to really want to reach for them.

That part actually makes me kind of perfect for the job. I’ve had a bad habit in the past of working in jobs where I really wanted to be a customer. I worked on special events that I would have rather attended, I waited tables in a place where I wanted to eat all of the food, and I served beers in a sports bar where I was constantly distracted by watching the game.

So it’s strange for me to see people wait in the cold and spend more than my weekly paycheck on a night on the town that I can’t imagine choosing for myself.
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The Apology
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1183612317e8.jpgLet me just start by saying that it wasn’t forthcoming. The first communication I got the day after being asked along on someone else’s date was as noncommittal and oblivious as the previous evening’s actions. 

“Great to see you last night… ☺”

I almost had to laugh- what part of that experience had been anything remotely resembling great? I carefully formulated my response, trying to suppress the rage that would automatically get me labeled as ‘psycho’ but still make my point clearly. I called on the basic psychology lessons I’ve learned about expressing only how you feel instead of projecting onto the other person.

“I’m glad it was fun for you,” I replied, “because it was actually awful for me to tag along on your date last night. It made me feel like an idiot and really hurt my feelings. Why did you even invite me?”

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Kiss Her?! But I’M Irish!
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leprechaun.jpgThe luck of the leprechauns was not with me yesterday. In fact, I’m wondering if ancestors of mine were actually gold thieves and I’m living out a curse based on their bad behavior.

The worst nights always start so well, letting you slip out of that heavy coat of defense into something more comfortable until you stand naked, defenseless and vulnerable. But now I’m getting ahead of myself…

I went to meet a guy who I’ve had one amazing night out with, hours of conversation finished with a passionate good night kiss. I asked if he had plans to indulge in green beer for St. Patrick’s Day and he invited me out to meet him with a friend in town.

Now, let me be clear here- I made a suggestion and he insisted I come. I even called again before heading down, asking if he was sure it was a good idea to interrupt a night of male bonding with a friend he doesn’t see very often, but he insisted.

When I got there I found a group of mixed company, two guys, two girls, leaving me the never popular fifth corner. He swept me up into a big hug and I relaxed, momentarily, until we headed onto the street to hit another bar.
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20 More Tidbits About Me
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My 100 is a work in progress. Click here to read the first installment

21. I’m a proud Irish lass.

22. I’m equally comfortable drinking a beer, a glass of champagne, or a cocktail depending on my mood.

23. I took the same personality test twice in college and changed from an introvert to an extrovert- I can be both at
times.

24. I am much harder on myself than I am on anyone else.

25. While most girls I know obsess over shoes, I could never own too many sunglasses or earrings.

26. I’ve never been in love, and my biggest fear is that I never will be.

27. I lost a spelling bee in the fifth grade on the word “quarrel” and will never forget how to spell it.

28. I won a spelling bee in the sixth grade by spelling “daisy” and was mystified that my opponent got it wrong.

29. I get really competitive when it comes to things like board games.

30. I absolutely love to argue and seriously considered law school.
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